Why?

On Wednesday I went to the dietitian to see why even though I have been going to curves for a year I have only lost 1 pound. I lost a bunch then gained it back then lost some more then gained it back. But when the year ended I had only lost 1 whole pound.  But my skinny jeans are baggy jeans and some of my button blouses are not skin tight either. So it kind of looks like I lost weight even though I didn't.
 I signed up for an appointment to talk with the dietitian at McCullough-Hyde Hospital about how to manage my diet since I am a diabetic. Even if I lose the weight I will still be diabetic, but I will slow down the progressive problems that come with this disease. Here is what she told me.
First diabetes come from not having enough carbohydrates in your cells to give you energy. The insulin that your  body produces isn't working or your body doesn't produce enough. So you don't have energy and you feel tired. As a diabetic I take metformin which is supposed to help with the digestion of the carbohydrates.
She gave me a diet.  Low and behold I was not eating enough carbohydrates and not eating at regular times and not drinking enough water and eating too many fats. For the last 4 days I have been measuring things out, planning meals ahead and counting carbs.  My breakfast food has increased with more carbs and less protein. Dinner is also the same way. And I have to eat a big lunch and three snacks. I will try this for a month and according to the dietitian I should lose 2 pounds a week. We will see. The challenge is to be intentional about eating and not impulsive and to measure everything out.
I am also going to walk at Miami University field house otherwise known as Millett Hall every day to increase my exercise.
I am still very angry about having diabetes, but hopefully, I can manage the illness better and not let it get to  me.